Well. Here I am. Hanging out at Uta's. Trying my hand at writing this here blog.
I guess for starters I should say something about this painting that is posted above. I did this one a while back and it really has me wondering where my mind was at when I created it. But it happened and I can't take that back. I guess that is a rule that is applicable to many things in life. I had this painting hanging at Balance Hair Salon in Jersey City, took it down and gave it away. Or maybe I threw it away. I can't honestly remember. It doesn't matter.
I have been searching, no, I have been clawing, striving, shit I have been doing everything imaginable to become an artist and here I sit feeling pretty foolish. I have always believed we are all artists aching to break out of our shells. Somehow, this game called life imposes endless barriers in our way for self expression, though I must admit most of these restrictions are self imposed. Or, at least, that is how it seems to me. I have been an artist all along, for whatever reason feeling shame for it. It doesn't make sense. I find myself thinking of Gandhi as he said "Be the change you wish to see in the world". Funny, but I thought I could just become the change without having to work much for it---how pathetic. Or should I say "lame". But I am just a person finding his way through this strange life.
I am going to be taking art work more seriously and would like to get my work out in the public a little more than what I have been doing. I have to say, there have been times where I have been driven to do art work for all the wrong reasons. That main reason being money. But I guess living paycheck to paycheck will do that to you. Eating peanut butter straight from the container, canned veggies with white rice a delicacy {salt if I am feeling dangerous}. It would make anyone strive for better times, I suppose.
So. This Friday I will be at CREATIVE GROVE. I hope to have some new art work to show, possibly sell. It is a good time there, Hope to see you there.
Ed
